Test... and sadness

This is a test. It's my very first posting as a blogger. I've always been very intermittent about keeping diaries, so we'll see how long this lasts!

Have you ever been bumping along on the rocky road of life, when all of a sudden you screech to a halt, startled by the sadness and hurt you feel about something you didn't expect to 1. - happen; and 2. - affect you this way? It's been about a year and a half since my boyfriend and I broke up. It was mutual - we just didn't want the same things. He found someone basically right away, while I haven't been so lucky. Anyway, I just found out that said former boyfriend (and current friend), is going to NYC to hear a band we both love. Not only is he going all the way out there to hear them, he's going with the aforementioned someone, who doesn't really even like the band. I was surprised at my almost immediate feelings of shock (that they would travel so far together when they don't even admit they're dating), jealousy (that I don't get to see the band), and resentment (that he wouldn't travel long distances with me when we were together). I know, I know... all this is common knowledge for some people. But for me, it's still new I guess. What really hurts (get ready for the self pity party) is that he has someone and I don't. And to pour salt in the wound, I'm the one who wants the family, the kids, etc., and he doesn't. I guess that's life, though, eh? You deal with things and move on. I just want the someone I'm going to move on with.